Here we are in the midst of the holiday season and I NEVER posted an official baby announcement.! Yikes, I’m behind. I took a 3 month maternity leave from any online work, but it is good to be back.
ZADEN PAUL CARLTON was born August 31 at 5:05pm. He was 5lb 8oz. We are so in love with our little man!
I wrote a blog post about my gestational diabetes and how perfectly normal/healthy people can get it. Having diabetes while pregnant definitely was not in my “pregnancy plans” but it was the first step in God teaching me to become more trusting of HIS plans for me. Motherhood has already taught me so much — to let go of my perfect plans and my anxiety about the future and to place my trust in my all-knowing, sovereign God! I know I will probably be taught this lesson again and again through the years.
And Gestational Diabetes was only the first deviation from my plans…
My goal was to have my baby at a birth center as naturally as possible! I have always been interested in having a home birth, but my husband and I decided it would be better to have my first at a birth center in Sacramento in case anything went wrong *rolls eyes* I was pretty darn certain nothing would, my mom had 7 healthy pregnancies and births and her last one was in her 40’s! So, pshh I mean…come on, I’m only 24. What could go wrong? Surely I was in for a smooth natural pregnancy and delivery! I was so excited for a quiet, intimate birth with just the midwife, my husband, and mom.
So, first the news came that I had gestational diabetes… I was shocked! Honestly, I had never even heard of it. Thankfully, I was able to control it with dietary changes and so the midwife still felt comfortable with me having my baby there. That was util around 36 weeks when I was at a checkup and the midwife gave me a funny look after taking my blood pressure. She proceeded to take my blood pressure multiple times. She told me my blood pressure was elevated – but not to the point that I would need to be hospitalized. However, it continued to go up no matter how much I tried to “take it easy.” I was taken to the hospital and was there most of the night being tested and monitored and was finally sent home — conclusion = I didn’t have preeclampsia but I did have gestational hypertension. The next day I was sent in again (this time to a different hospital) and they concluded that the best thing for my baby and I was to get him out pf there. They also concluded that I did have preeclampsia (I was told so many different things, I’m not sure if I really did have it or not haha).
They were going to induce me.
And that’s when I had to fully surrender my plans to the Lord. Here I was surrounded by strange doctors and med students, hooked up to a blood pressure monitor and IV, getting prepped for my induction… They laughed at the idea that I didn’t want an epidural and told me I needed magnesium or I my blood pressure would spike too high from the petocin and I could have a seizure…. after discussing (more like arguing) with all the different doctors, I was left with multiple stressful decisions that I wasn’t prepared to make. I am just so thankful I had my faithful husband by my side, supporting me and taking the lead with communicating with the doctors. I could not have gone through the birth without him, my labor delivery nurse friend, and my mom. They were an awesome team!
The labor was VERY painful, as the baby was face up, and being induced is no fun. But 13 hours later my tiny little boy was born!
So that’s my story. Thankfully, nothing major did go wrong and I was still able to have a natural birth (besides the petocin). I was able to give birth to a beautiful, healthy son! And I know many people have scarier, more devastating birth stories than I do… Oh how my heart aches for them! And…oh my goodness did I learn why some people choose to get an epidural…OUCH 😉 there is absolutely no judgement on my part if you chose to get one haha. I felt led to share my story to encourage women to always hold their plans and desires with open hands. YES – it is still good to plan and dream. And yes, I still think natural birth is the best option. HOWEVER, things don’t always go as we plan and we have to be ok with that. We must have more trust and faith in God’s plan than our own.
What do I want you to take away from this?
- Hold onto your plans and desires with open hands
- Trust your heavenly Father
- Don’t judge other. Everyone has a story and we don’t know it. So, before we proceed to inform someone that natural birth is best, listen to their story – be understanding – be loving.
There is a time and place to gently encourage and help one another understand the benefits of a natural birth, but this must be done in a such a gentle way. As sister’s in Christ, our first priority should be to listen to each other and encourage one another as we all learn to trust the Lord with the future and live out our role as mothers – with all the crazy plan changes and stressful decision making that entails.
Thank you for listening. I’d love to hear your birth story!